It is said from time to time that “It is not that I don’t care, it is that I don’t mind.” When it is used in the English language and coming from the person or ego there is a basic explanation that not minding has a softer feeling to it, while not caring has a colder meaning.
There are moments of realization we all experience when we see the truth, and recognize that all this time we have been living a lie.
This concept that the truth will set you free comes from this understanding.
You are nothing more and nothing less than complete stillness without identity. I realize for most this seems to be an absurd statement, yet when it is realized, you are freed from the pain and suffering, which accompanies the imagined self.
I wanted to go deeper into the belief of a self–image. Most of us can grasp that we have a self-image, but what does that actually mean? So let’s look at this.
This question of do you want to be happy or right is the awakening to transforming your life experience.
You see, it all at once hit me that it is the ego that is always wanting to prove itself right along with its existence. It looks to always prove it is right and everything else is wrong, or that it needs things its way. This concept or belief system of having to be right is what creates all the pain and suffering you experience.
It feels like the most terrible thing to lose everything. We of course use that phrase incorrectly, to get across how emotionally devastating a situation is.
It may happen that we lose our jobs, or our homes are destroyed by fire, flood, or earthquakes, our money is gone, or we lose a loved one to divorce, or death.
Why is it we feel the need to have a day to start over? It is as if we are postponing our efforts of getting back on track, (usually a Monday) before we make the corrections we feel we need.
Many clients will use the reason, (which is just an excuse), so they can have a few more days, weeks, months, or sometimes years before they clean up their act as my dad used to say.
We all have goals and dreams we would like to achieve. For some, it is wealth, others health, and for others love. The intention is neither here nor there. All of it is coming from a mental/emotional belief that there is no wholeness to our identity. The lack of wholeness is expected to be filled once the goal is achieved.
This is not the case, however. For once we have achieved a goal no matter how amazing, the feeling of completeness will not last. Some other concept of not being complete will be felt.
Imagine you are standing in the forest, and come across a pond. The pond surface is completely still, and surrounded by trees up to its banks. You observe everything without involvement. The trees are just trees, the pond just a pond. It is seen as it truly is without attachment of personalized meaning.
Awareness is your actual existence and actual experience. This means you do not exist as something referred to as a person. The only thing occurring is the witnessing of experience.
This may take a bit of explaining. Although it must be said that it is impossible to actually express what we are because what we are is nothing that can be explained, or understood.
Change is constant.
You are not the changing experience you are what witness’s the change without attachment or meaning.
Autumn is upon us and everywhere there are signs of the changing season. Here in Southern Oregon, it happened overnight. One day I was speaking to a client, as we looked out over the trees which were still green and the next day several trees right in front of the studio turned yellow and red. It was as if they needed to be reminded of the season change and their part to play.